Ok, like, so, you know...
If we're fighting, right...
and I come in for a punch...
-Oh!
Do not kick me in the nuts.
Waking. Here I am.
Sleeping. Here I am.
Dreaming. Here I am.
Waking, sleeping, dreaming. Here I am.
Always I was here.
Now I speak to you.
Just have no fear.
You don't know how much you miss
by not knowing yourself.
Do you run the risk?
Here is the Self, that speaks to you
and will never fade away.
Never fade away.
Here is the Self, that speaks to you
and will never fade away.
Never fade away.
Here I am.
Well, where I am now is I'm currently at Fight Club
And what we're doing here is... My job is to come down here...
What happens is there's people going inside the shooting gallery.
And they shoot up with alcohol, and they posture and try to find a mate.
And when they've been unsuccessfull with their mating habits,
they come out into the parking lot and try to kill eachother.
So it's my job to stop them from killing eachother, using a minimal amount of force.
And the problem is that there's a lot of cocaine and steroids involved here,
so you get a lot of really big guys, who luckily are not trying to kill me,
but they're trying to kill each other.
And then we prevent them from doing that, so that's a problem.
So that's generally what I do for, just to keep it real.
To make sure that you understand that there's no bullshit on the concrete, you know?
And I think that anyone who's ever been involved in any kind of law enforcement
or making policy regarding law enforecement, should probably come out and do something
like this once in a while just to, you know, keep it real,
so they see what's really happening on the ground.
This is our newest news letter.
It came out yesterday morning, so... -Are you guys local here?
Yeah we're an anti war coalision of Vancouver.
We've got about 50 member groups, and we work a lot on campuses
and in outlying areas as well as in Vancouver proper, but...
It's got an article on the war resistors and one of the speakers, Brandon Hughey,
he spoke today and he's trying to get refuge status in Canada.
He deserted from the U.S. army when he was denied a discharge.
Yeah, they're trying to dispute it on the basis that
he should go back to the states and go be in prison.
So you are, just for everyone who didn't catch this, you are...?
What's your gig? What's your story?
I came to Canada because I've been given
orders to participate in the invasion of Iraq,
and I told my commanding officers I didn't think it was right,
and I was refused the discharge, so I saw this as my only option.
-Ok, and what did you do when you were in?
-I was trained as a tank driver but they stationed me in headquarters
of the first cavalry division, so I didn't have a specific job.
I just did what I was told to do. -Right.
Yeah, that happens. OK, and what about...
So you're a refuge now I guess? -A refuge claimant.
-And they're going to decide on that one? -The claim is still pending.
-So, where are you from originally, if you don't mind me asking?
-Ok, originally, I'm from San Angelo, Texas.
-So you're a long way from home? -Yeah, a little bit so.
-That must be hard on your... How's the family with all of this?
Are they supporting you?
-Yeah, it's just been hard to reach my family, though...
-I guess so. -Yeah
-That's a long way. I was down in Texas, I was in...
Where was I now?
I was down in the Gulf of Mexico for a little while there, but that's all right.
Well, you know what, chief? I hope you make it.
Because I don't think anybody should go to war that doesn't want it.
You know what I mean? -Yeah.
-You know I got... Sometimes I get conflicting views and stuff,
but if you don't want to be there, you shouldn't be there.
I hope you get it right.
Take it easy.
I have sat two ten day of
aposna meditation courses
in the tradition of theraphy to buddhism.
I have sat multiple sazen sessions at
the Zen mountain monastery
including personal training from resident monks in the Berkshire mountain.
My history also includes two years of aikido training in the styles of kokikai and aikikai
as well as over a decade of mind and body practice
My father crafts meditation benches by hand.
and have taught me multiple techniques through very intensive training.
I've never meditated before.
I've done some reading on it.
I've tried to do some meditation once or twice,
but I wasn't sure if I was doing it right.
So my whole intention here is too...
I mean there's nothing to really stop you from sitting there, right?
I mean you're sitting there. All you've got to do is sit.
And the way I see it is that the more you try to do stuff,
then you just kind of cause yourself to be tied up in knots.
So my whole strategy going into this is to sit there longer than he does
and the only way I'm going to get by that is to sort of just
in essence play like you're dead and release everything.
That pretty much what I got out of the books I thumbed through.
I got "The three pillars of zen" but I never read it so we'll see how that goes.
Really blue, just like blue wash and everything
because the sunlight on the eyes cuts out all the blue.
-Take a look at this, holy shit!
-Yeah I figured that would be what did you in was the fucking concrete, eh?
Ouch, dude.
-You are strong.
-I didn't think about anything, that's the whole point, if you try to think about stuff...
I got into this weird mantra there where I was going
"Just release it, release it, release it..." in my head.
And then actually, I kind of felt the sound of the water kind of come over,
and everything kind of slurred up for a minute.
I almost felt like I was passing out for a second there.
I lost all sense of time whatsoever, like, there was no...
I couldn't tell you if you were there for five minutes,
ten minutes, fifteen minutes, I have no idea.
-Zen fighting. -One shall remain.
One of the reasons why you always wanna have a GPS with you
is so you can mark the location
of buildings in the city
that you want to remember.
Like this building, for example.
This is the "Murian rectifier station".
What that mean, I have no idea.
But the building has no windows on it what so ever.
After closer inspection we discover that it has a lot of power switches and stuff due to,
infrastructure for the city, goes on in this particular building.
What I'm interested in is actually the building itself.
We got stone, brickwork and iron fence protecting the brickwork.
There is no free access, clear way to the rooftop.
Fantastic!
Now, in case of rapture, alien invasion, a place where you need to have a solid place
to go where you can hunker down and wait it out, this building is just about perfect.
Not a lot of windows.
George A. Romero couldn't get into this building, let me tell you.
So all you gotta do is mark these locations on your GPS,
and then we could start getting them all together.
Coming up with good locations in each city.
In Vancouver there'd be so many different GPS grid coordinates,
where Wogs would go and take over the cities when the rapture comes.
Or whatever happens.
I mean, sure, the likelihood of the rapture happening is very, very low,
but having those GPS grid coordinates is kind of like...
If you had them and you didn't need them, that would be OK.
But if you needed those GPS grid coordinates and you didn't have them, that would suck!
The other day I was at the mall and I was walking through this store,
you know one of those big box stores,
and walking the other way was this guy,
he was about 5'7"
and he looked like he was about 57,
and his face was super leathery and he had a Canadian airborne regiment cap on, now,
the thing is that the Canadian airborne regiment caps can only be bought in one place,
those particular caps, and it's in Petawawa, so...
He was, I could tell by looking at him that he was one of the airborne regiment
cause I've seen them before, you know?
And he had the handlebar moustache. You know, that's a big thing.
When you decided to make the lifetime commitment to the canadian army,
that's the mohawk in the canadian army, is the handlebar moustache, you know?
When you're a lifer, that's what you get, you know.
He had the airborne cap on, so he was...
And you could tell by looking at this guy, you know, like...
So I talk to him for a bit, he told me about all the marches he'd been on,
and his time in the commando groups and everything, and there he was in the Sears,
just buying a belt and stuff in the bargain bin and stuff like that
and I thought that was kind of sad.
You know, here's this hero, really, you know, I mean.
This is the guy who had his youth and his body robbed from him through suffering
and through harsh winds, through extreme environments, for the good of his country.
And here he is in Sears, in the bargain bin, trying to buy a belt.
That's not right.
You know, you think that, if you were at least going to give in to that,
you we're going to be an airbone ranger, if you're going to be in the special forces
of any country, of any army, you know, you should be, I don't know,
you just shouldn't be scrounging around in bargain bins, you know?
It just doesn't seem right somehow.
That made me think an awful lot about the padgeantry of the army.
You got all these ribbons...
And Napoleon even said "I make people die for me, just for these ribbons", you know.
And young men, they want to prove that they're men, they want to prove that they
can go out into the bush and kill the bear and anoint themselves with the blood
and "Then we'll be men!", you know?
And we'll be respected and feared and loved and all that, it's all bullshit.
It's all this weird image thing that we've got and this is in no way about the guy.
I don't want to mention him by name because he was...
He was... I've met a ton of guys like them, you know?
And he was so fiercely proud of what he was.
And that's cool, I guess. Why not?
But it just seemed to me that he kind of got ripped off.
Let's take everything that you are. That you were born into this world.
At one point when you were a gentle person, a loving person
who maybe were married at one time and you loved your wife,
and now that's gone because you got dragged through several countries
and made thrown out of planes and trained every day to kill people.
It takes a certain kind of damage to train people every day to kill people.
It's not like the video games where you're running around
with two hundred pounds of gear on
and you run through the desert and streets of Mogadishu and shooting guys with your MP5
and you get shot and you respawn. No man. The med-kits don't work that fast.
The joint damage comes over time and your back goes and your knees goes
and before you know it, you're walking with a cane.
But you're Airbourne, until you remuster to become a cook so you can finish out your tour,
maybe end as a store clerk, get your pension which they cut you on.
And with your pension you're going to wind up in the Sears, looking in the bargain basement bin.
So what do you do? Do you bin it? Do you just bin the whole thing,
You say: "Screw it! Screw the army! Screw the honour of our lives!
Screw the honour of our nation! Screw the pageantry of the military!"
Yeah, fuck the pageantry, and fuck the military too.
Because there's a lot of really good people in the army
who are getting really, really messed over.
And they believe in the country and they believe in the ideas of freedom and stuff like that.
But the Money, all of the corporations and stuff, they're moving in on everything
and everybody wants that almighty dollar and they're costing
the blood of our best, for money.
I don't know what the answer is, but don't join the army, guys. Don't do it.
It's not what you think, and it's not what they show you on TV either.
And you will stop being everything that you are.
Maybe you can come out of it ahead.
A lot of people go: "But Sean, you were in the army!". Yeah. Yeah, I was, yeah.
I was in the air assault regiment, or battery, and it was a rough go
and anyone who was there with me they know I had a hard time with it.
But at the end of the day, I met a lot of really interesting guys
and before you settle in an orchard, you might want to check the fruit on the trees.
But I'm here to tell you, there's nothing really good to see there.
I just don't want to see...
I'd like people to have a little more than just a bunch of pins
on an old trucker cap that got painted a certain way.
I'd like people to be themselves and express themselves
rather than buying into the handlebar moustache.
I'm just Sean Kennedy, you know? Im just one guy, what do I know?
But that's my take on it.
All is the Self, all is myself.
All is you and yours. There's nobody else.
I am one and appear as many.
All is the Self, all is myself.
All is you and yours. There's nobody else.
I am one and appear as many.
Here is the Self, that speaks to you
and will never fade away.
Never fade away.
Here is the Self, that speaks to you
and will never fade away.
Never fade away.
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